Monday, July 14, 2014

The day I learned that I am a fighter...


The past couple of weeks, Andrew and I have been taking Ruger out for a swim almost daily. It's been so nice, especially considering that last year, it was September by the time we actually even got out on the lake! I felt that we had jipped ourselves and promised that we would definitely be taking advantage of the water this year! So far, we've lived up to that promise!

I noticed at the beginning of the season that Ruger was a little unsure of himself in the water, but I thought he would eventually grow into it, so I wasn't worried. Last week, though, Andrew and I started taking him out into deeper waters, and as I watched him struggle, I began to think it wouldn't be a bad idea to go into town to get him a life jacket, just so he would have a bit more confidence in the water.

We ran into town the night I had that thought to grab a jacket from Cabela's, but when we showed up, they didn't have the right size, and we were late enough that PetCo was closed. We just figured we'd be back into town over the weekend and grab one then... That was Thursday night.

The next day, Friday, Andrew didn't have too much work to do, so we decided to go to the lake early and buzz around on the Sea Doo for a while. We left Ruger in the bed of the pickup while we zipped around the lake, then I talked Andrew into taking me back to shore so I could swim and play with Ruger while he could have some 'manly' fun out on the jet ski. That was mistake number one... thinking that it would be OK for me to be swimming with no one else around.

When I got back, I meant to take my wedding ring off, but got distracted, and just headed down to our swim cove with the ring on my finger. By the time I got Ruger down there with our towels and things, I didn't want to walk all the way back to the pickup to take off my ring... It's too big, though and falls off when I am in the water. This was mistake number two. I took the ring off and stuck it in a little pocket on my own life jacket. I didn't want it to fall out in the water, so I took the life jacket off, and left it hanging on a branch with our towels.

I played close to shore with Ruger for a few minutes, then proceeded to get ready to swim to this little island like I had done everyday for the past week. It's about 75 yards, but the water is extremely deep. Ruger usually will swim about 20-25 yards out, get scared and go back... but USUALLY Andrew is there with us... 

I began swimming out and when I got about halfway, I noticed that Ruger was getting REALLY close to me. I could see in his face that he was panicking, and I braced myself for what was coming next.

It's interesting, when you have times in your life where you aren't sure your are going to make it... it seems that time slows down and you become very aware of everything that is taking place around you. At the same time, though, it seems that you are dazed and confused, and not sure what to do until the fight or flight instinct kicks in. This was one of those moments!

Ruger lunged forward and pushed me down under the water. I fought to get my head back up where I could see and breathe, and shoved him away from me, but he was moving faster than I could. Before I could think about what to do next, he was right next to me trying to climb back up on me again. I was under water a second time.

I remember thinking "You have to make a decision; either you both go down, or you save yourself and try to get him taken care of later." It was heartbreaking, though to think of what the outcome of this situation might be, but I didn't have time to think of that. The only thing that I could do was kick, and fight, and PRAY. I began to pray hard! I prayed that God would help me stay calm and know what to do. I prayed that Andrew would come back on the jet ski, to pull Ruger from the water. I prayed that Ruger would see how close we were to the shore, instead of only seeing me as his way out of the water. None of my prayers were being answered, and I knew that if I kept being pushed down like I was, it wouldn't be long until I wouldn't be able to fight anymore. I could feel my body cramping, and begging for air. I knew that it was starting to give up. This is when I PRAYED to know how I could save my life. What could I possibly DO to get out of this terrible situation I had gotten myself into?

Suddenly, I grabbed Rugers jaw to push him away from me yet again, and realized that I could hold him out away from me and POINT his face toward the island! He was still looking at me, but I was able to keep him off of me, and move forward with my other arm and kicking my legs harder than I thought I could... and FINALLY Ruger looked forward, and saw the edge of the water. He took off and I was able to slow down a little and try to catch my breath. I knew it wasn't over yet, but I felt like my saving grace had come... I paddled my way to the shore, and just as I reached it, I looked up and saw Andrew driving toward me. 
I got to a point where I could reach and just sat down. By this time, I was hyperventilating and a little in shock over what just happened. I nearly passed out into the water, but Andrew was there, and I was safe. All I could do was cry tears of gratitude.

I had made it through one of the scariest experiences of my life. 

As I drove home, I thought about life over the last 10 or so years. Through my teenage years, I would often wish that I would get into some freak-accident. I was so depressed, but I knew that suicide was not the answer. I just wanted some way to end the pain. I often thought about how I would react if I got into a life-or-death situation. I never thought that I would fight for my life!

I know that over the past few years, I have grown so much. Especially over the past year. My life has changed LEAPS AND BOUNDS!!! I now value my life and my time! I am SO GRATEFUL for the time I have been given and I have realized something; God is aware of you. He loves you and wants you to succeed. I have learned however, that He won't do everything for you. This life is about gaining experience, and learning and growing. I prayed from Him to save me, but it wasn't until I thought of what I could do to help myself through my situation that I received inspiration that lead me out of my predicament. 

It's like a parent teaching a child to ride a bicycle. You can't do it for them. They'll never learn that way. Instead, you push them into the direction you need them to go, then you hope that they will keep their end of the deal and pedal to stay on the path that you have put them on. 

I am so grateful that I have kept my ears opened to the direction from my Heavenly Father, and that I have chosen to keep peddling to stay on the path that He has placed me on.Because of my choices, there have been times when I have strayed, but always, I am lead back to where I need to be. 

I am so grateful that I made it through this experience, and that it didn't turn out differently than it did. 

*Disclaimer, we got Ruger a life jacket the next day. He is a much better swimmer now.

Saturday, April 12, 2014

When You are Happy, Things Will Change!

I know that I have talked about the law of attraction before, but it blows my mind every time...
THE SECRET


I want to start with a story.
Andrew and I were REALLY struggling financially when we were first married. There were a few weeks when he was working over 40 hours, but only getting paid for the hours that there was a car in the shop being tinkered with. I remember times when we added up his paychecks, and realized that, per hour, he was getting almost three dollars less than minimum wage!!!
Still, we always seemed to have what we needed... whether it was my grandparents coming by and dropping off a loaf or two of bread with some of the surplus from their garden, a friend inviting us to dinner, my mom following me home and putting a few gallons of fuel in my car before we got there, or being allowed to go 'shopping' through Andy's mother's pantry/food storage. We weren't hungry, and though our circumstances were somewhat meager at times, we were happy, but we knew that there HAD to be more to life.

We have a goal. Someday, we want to serve missions for our Church. In order to reach that goal, however, we have to have the funds to leave our 'jobs' and life behind us. Two years ago, we were introduced to 'The Secret' by Rhonda Byrne. We figured that if our goals were in line with the will of God, then we should be allowed EVERYTHING WE WANT. So, the work commenced. We prayed, and searched and went when we realized that our goals wouldn't be met in those circumstances. We packed up our bags and went where we felt we had been led... and we are now, two years later, seeing the beginning fruits of our labors.
Was it easy? Definitely not. There was blood, sweat, and tears involved, but it will definitely be worth it!
It's not over yet, either. In my honest opinion, the hard work has merely just begun! I guarantee that there will be work ahead of us, but we'll take it on with a smile on our faces, and here's why:

We KNOW that we can have what we want in life. We don't blame the government, or our backgrounds, past, or present circumstances on our failure. Also, when we DO fail, we don't look at it as failure (at least not after we step back and see the big picture). We instead take it as one door closing, and we search for the door that has opened because of that... and each time we open a new door, life get's a little shinier than it was before. The new door is always a little stronger, and more beautiful than the door we just came from and closed behind us. That is such a blessing, and we are grateful for it! We also can't wait to see what is in store for us!

All I can say, is, I look around me at what some of our friends and family are going through, and I can't help but be grateful! I am grateful for goodly parents that taught me the value of hard work, and patience. I am grateful for the lessons I have learned, and that they have been taught and understood so early in life! I am eternally grateful for the thousands of people who have placed a seed of success into my heart and mind and pushed me to where I am today, and I know Andrew feels the same way! There are SO many of you that we could list your names for days, and some of the names we'd list are of people who don't even realize what an impact they've made on our lives!

With that being said, I'd just like to add one more idea:
If you are at a point in life where you feel that your back is against the wall, I URGE you, do not give up! I PROMISE it gets better! If you want it to get better sooner than later, though, I will just say that that is up to you! You really are your biggest enemy when it comes to progressing in life! You might think I am being rude in saying that, but it's TRUE! You are NOT the 99%. There is no such thing! You are a son or daughter of a LIVING GOD who loves you and cares about what you are doing with your time! If you want happiness in your life, ask for it, but you have to REALLY want it!
What does that even mean? Well, this is coming from a 23 year old girl who used to LOVE feeling that her whole life was out of her hands, and there was nothing she could do to fix that, but, boy was she wrong!!! I have since learned that I have 100% control over what I want in my life, I just have to keep telling myself that what I want is really what I want, and then put forward some effort to bring myself to my desires! If you think that's bogus, I'll tell you that you're probably wasting your time.
I used to be THE QUEEN OF EXCUSES. If there is one, you bet I've used it, but like a funny phrase I have heard, excuses are like 'armpits'. We all have them, and they all stink.
I challenge you today to start getting rid of your excuses one by one, and not just for a week or two, I mean for good. Then get your hands dirty and I DARE you to tell me that your life does not start improving!
Most of all, look around you and see what you have to be grateful for!!! After you are done with that, come back and tell me how great you feel! I'll bet you'll be surprised at your results!

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Day 4: What is my guilty pleasure?

Guilty pleasure, eh?

OH BOY!

Ok, so if you know me, you know I would rather be sitting around a campfire, chatting away with friends and family than sitting in front of the TV watching meaningless programs that will get me no-where in my life, but there are two shows that I HAVE TO AVOID LIKE THE PLAGUE, or they will suck me in and I will loose HOURS of my life without even realizing it!

So, what are these shows, you ask?
Well, I might be a little embarrassed to tell you, but the first one is "America's Next Top Model".
Is it even running anymore? I haven't seen it in years, but I remember in high school I would waste the entire weekend watching reruns of that show. I just couldn't get enough of it and I have no idea why!
I am really grateful that it has been years since I have seen it, but I'd bet that if it popped up through my channel surfing, I'd probably get sucked right back into it! It is horrible because I do not believe in what the show promotes and I know that everything is so computerized and faked, still, I just can't seem to fight the urge to watch it.

The second is bad because we have Netflix and it's on there! Have you ever seen 'Say Yes To The Dress"? I am not even in the market for a wedding dress, but I LOVE watching that show!!! I think I may even love the Atlanta version better. There are a lot of spunky characters in the world, and that show has some of the craziest dresses! I Think I paid way too much for my wedding dress, and it was less than a grand... I can't believe how much some women will spend on a dress that they will wear only once in their lifetime! Honestly, where do they come up with the money to buy a dress that costs as much as a car?!
It's pretty crazy to me. 

What are your guilty pleasures? :-)


Monday, March 3, 2014

Day 3. If I won the lottery...

If I won the lottery...
How fun!
Well, I feel like I already have.
I feel that true happiness doesn't come from having more material items, but if I did win the lottery, I would first pay off all of my debts, then take each of my family members on vacation. Whether I send them away, or I go with them, doesn't matter as much as the fact that I would let them choose where they wanted to go, then pay for the trip!
I think that would be so fun and I have always wanted to pay it forward to my family! They have done so much for me over the years! It would be the least I could do!

Wouldn't that be fun!

Where would you go if you got an offer like that?

I have always wanted to go to Ireland/Scotland, or Australia!!! What fun that would be!

Day 2. What's in a name?

I have posted about the title of my blog before.
Basically, when I think of my blog, I think of it as a newsboy, or 'newsie' shouting out what significant, or not so significant events are happening in Andrew's an my life together!

With that being said, if you'd like to read more on that subject, here's the link to the older post:

On the other hand, if you'd like to know more about me, I also have a health and fitness blog:

The reasoning behind this blog name is this:
For a long time, I was a very unhappy person. I was angry with a lot of things; God, my family, just disappointed in my life in general.
One day, I decided that was going to change, and I took it upon myself to spend the rest of my life helping others reach their dreams and take control of their lives through health and fitness. That day, was a day that changed my life and it brought a whole new person out of me! A happy person! I still have hard days at times, but I have learned that life is meant to be enjoyed and I fin the truth in that more and more each and every day. I realized that I could create a better life for myself if I really wanted to, but only I had the power to do that. As a result, I am trying to pass on what is working or not working for me so that other's may learn from my results. That is where the 'team' part comes in. People who decide to take my advice are on the same team as me, and we are creating our best lives together!

Day 1. Something to be thankful for...

Oh, how could I narrow down my gratitude to just one thing?!

Today's challenge is to blog about something I am grateful for, but that's a hard one. More and  more, I find new things to be grateful for each and every day!

Considering that today is Monday, though, and yesterday I taught my Young Women about Christ's Atonement, I would have to say that what comes to mind is how grateful I am for new beginnings!
Just like every time we use the Atonement in our lives, and our slate is wiped perfectly clean, each new day brings promise and opportunity of a better tomorrow!

I am SO grateful for that knowledge and the blessings that have come into my life from putting that knowledge to good use!
Does it mean I am perfect? Absolutely not!
(But I wouldn't want to be perfect, though. I imagine that would lead to a very boring life!)

What it means is that no matter how bad I messed up yesterday, I always have the chance for a fresh start. A new mind-set. A new opportunity to try again, or change my approach, and learn and grow through the process.
It means that I can be happy because I know the difference between sorrow and joy. 
Most of all, 
It means every little thing is gonna be alright!

And for that knowledge, I am very grateful!

Blog Challenge for MARCH!!!

A friend of mine is doing a blog challenge it sounds fun, so I'd like to join in and do it too! If you want to join us, shout and then copy and paste this into your blog and get started!!! 

March Blog Challenge

I have never done a blog challenge, but this place is definitely in need of some TLC! My friend, Abbey made up this challenge, so I am going to jump on board with her and get into it.
1. Something to be thankful for
2. Explain the meaning/reason behind your blog title
3. If I won the lottery...
4. Guilty pleasure
5. 3 Personality traits I'm proud of
6. 10 favorite foods
7. First celebrity crush
8. Proudest Moment
9. 20 things about me
10. Favorite Childhood book
11. Where I want to be in 10 years
12. Pet Peeves
13. Something I struggle with
14. What makes me feel better, always
15. Weird quirk of mine
16. Timeline of day
17. Favorite place to visit-as a child and now
18. 3 books on your book shelf
19. Bucket List
20. I am looking forward to...
21. Find an old photo of yourself and tell the story about it.
22. Hobbies
23. Write a letter to yourself
24. If you were a super hero, what would your super power be.
25. Give a helpful tip
26. I miss...
27. Someone you would want to switch lives with for1 day and why
28. Nicknames
29. Something or someone that has had a big impact on you
30. How has life changed since 5 years ago
31. A song and photo to match your current mood

Anyone want to join me?? Please?? 
With that being said, I'm behind!! Lets get started...